Yes I Love the Girl

Yes I love the girl
Cause she knows who I am
Even when she's far away
She always takes a stand

Yes I love the girl
Cause I know who she is
Even when I'm far away
I still feel her kiss

And your just with some guy
And I'm just with some girl
Even though we're not together
We fill each others world

And we will always stay
As constant as the stars
Like islands in the stream
Our thoughts are never far

And we will never doubt
What these feelings are all about
And someday when the stars align
Our hearts may beat as one
And we will take to sailing to our islands in the stream

Mending Bridges

Mending bridges that I've burned
Trying somehow to discern
The aching lonely pain
Wanting to be washed in rain

Putting solutions into place
Trying not to act in haste
While putting problems to rest
Wanting only to do my best

Writing poetry on the wall
Discussing life before the fall
Wanting to pass this important test
Having all my sins confessed

Climbing mountains in front of me
At the top I look down on the valley
Looking in the distant sun
Of other mountains yet to come

As I act on all I've learned
And cross over bridges burned
I am quite happy to report
I didn't cut my life too short

Sharpen the Pencil and Dull the Brain (Fire Up the Night)

TEDCast Fire Up the Night
Dry woods, burning like a demon
Dry woods, burning like a witch
Dry wood, all the wood is steaming
Firing up the night

Fueled fire, flaming like a devil
Fueled fire, flaming like a bush
Fueled fire, sponsoring a fable
Firing up the night

Why can’t you hold out, you got to fire up the fight?
Why are you burning morning noon and night?
Faces are fading like a picture tube
Why are you waiting to follow the truth?

Why are we fighting you know how I am
Are you not satisfied?
My ways can not change, do they cause you that much pain
Are you still mystified?

The way of my living is like no one other
My secrets must be whispered
No modern medicine negates the existence
Of my over anxiety

Help, am I falling?
Help, are you wanting?
Help, am I in control?

Hell is for sinners
Hell is for losers
Hell is for lost souls?

Yes, I’m a winner
But not fit for dinner
At societies annual ball

I am a cold stone
I need no one
Only help to build my walls


I hide in a castle
I don’t want a hassle
Just sustenance served for one

My mind, please do not mind
My vision, may not follow suit
But my innovation
Is my own salvation
And I can not follow you

What gives me peace of mind
What makes my self go slow
What it takes for me to break
One way for an easy day

But you have to be ready for the price
Yeah you must be ready for the price …  Jesus Christ

What is it that you can not understand
Why can’t you back up to your man
Get up, stand up, make a stand
Right up past the limits of a man

Dry woods, burning like a demon
Dry woods, burning like a witch
Dry wood, all the wood is steaming
Firing up the night

Fueled fire, flaming like a devil
Fueled fire, flaming like a bush
Fueled fire, sponsoring a fable
Firing up the night

Licking Liquor

TED Cast of Licking Liquor

Lately I am thinking that I'm drinking way too much
I hoping that it's just a phase I'm going through
I'm betting that I'm vetting on a brand new clue
Some simple savvy insight on a suicidal life

Oh, why am I thinking both day and night?
All about drinking everything thing in sight?
If I lie awake and fight off sleep
Then I won't have drunk dreams
That lately have been haunting me

I am serious that complete changes are needed in me
If I want a life that I can be
Living in the moment, not pouring out the past
Or living in a future state of mind
Poor me, poor me, pour me another drink!

I need a new direction, I'm making a decision
I'm dancing on the wreckage of my prior life
I'm ending this relation, I'm bowing out on benders
No longer am I checking into treatment centers

I've tasted one last beer, I've thrown up one last time
No more waking up, in beds that are not mine
Who is that woman lying next to me?
Who what where and why did I do last night?

I needed a reporter to report back on me
I needed a transcription of my activities
Recollection always hazy, my madness more than crazy
Dreadful always thinking: "What'd I do last night?"

Although I may have thought I had a great time
Never could I understand my journal lines
Drunk dialing, tipsy texting, crying jags
Couldn't understand, why no one would want, to be around me
Boo ho, boo hoo, boo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo!

I've spent lots of money, may have turned to crime
If I continued down that line
Criminal behavior were showing their signs
I no longer visit, the liquor and wine store!


(Slow Broadway)
No more glass bottles in my trash
No more relationships that I have trashed
No more hangovers that have kicked my ass
I've licked liquor where liquor once licked me....

I've gone on my last
Yes I've gone on my last
I've gone on my last drinking spree!

It's Ok

A Song

It's ok if you want to remain friends
It's ok if you want to make amends
It's ok if you want to justify your needs
It's ok to make my heart bleed

It's ok if you want to make love to me
It's ok if you say that I meet your needs
It's ok if I sanctify your soul
It's ok if I move into your world

If you want to remain my friend
Just ask maybe we can begin
But don't show surprise if I never say please
And thank you for touching me when you're down on your knees

Cause, it's ok if bridges I do burn
And it's ok can if lessons I don't learn
For it's ok if I make love with greed
And turn elsewhere to satisfy my needs

It's ok if you run away from me
It's ok if you cannot be friends
It's ok if you want to shut the door
It's ok, it's ok if you don't want any more

It's ok if we never talk again
It's ok if we cannot mend
It's ok that we've both moved on
Loves currency has been overdrawn

Yes it is tragic that not everyone we can save
Not all relations can be conducive
But even resentments keep you close to me
It's ok, it's ok you've made my heart bleed
It's ok, it's ok you've made my heart bleed
It's ok, it's ok you took some love out of me

Ain't Gonna Lay Down

A Spiritual Song

Ain't gonna lay down, my children
Ain't gonna lay me down
Ain't gonna lay down, my children
Ain't gonna lay me down

My poor old soul may be lonely
And my body may be achy
But I ain't gonna lay down, my children
'Til I'm good and ready

I've worked my whole life on finding
Some kind of peace of mind
Say I've worked my whole life on finding
Some kind of peace

I've worked my whole life on finding
Some kind of peace
And when I am ready
God will welcome me

Ain't gonna lay down my body
Ain't gonna lay it down
Ain't gonna lay down my body
Not til happiness I've found

Well I'm old and tired and weary beyond my means
But when I lay my head down I have pleasant dreams
Of a life beyond this one where I have no pain
And I pray for His sweet love and revel in His name


Ain't gonna lay down my body
Ain't gonna lay it down
Ain't gonna lay down my body
Not til happiness I've found


For all my  misery and pain
I'd gladly do it again
Knowing that I'm washed by his sacrifice
My sins I have no blame

And as he rose that third day
And made us believe again
Our sins are washed away by sweet rain
He washed away our pain

And has He waits on high
Omnipotently He reigns
I no longer have to lay body
Ever down again

Ain't gonna lay down my body
Ain't gonna lay me down
Ain't gonna lay down my body
Cause Jesus He saved me

Substitute Sister

A long time gone but not forgotten
Are you still living somewhere?
A face hardly remembered but still in my memory
Where are the all pictures?

Even though you have left you linger in me
Even though you aren't here you're in my family tree

Even though you were older I wanted to protect
And be that bigger brother and garner your respect

And stop the bullies from bothering you
And kick the ass of boys who tried more than kissing you

And tell you stories about love and about life
And tell you what I hope for when you become a wife

So, where do we go from here?
Will I see you at graduation?
Are we going to go to each others weddings?
Are you going to stay in my life as a sister when you become a wife?

I miss having Debbie
But I'm glad I have you
For God brings only to us
What we can endure

And with that simple phrase
And a blessing of grace
I now have a sister
But with a new face

Let's keep in touch
And keep our pretend family intact
For I don't want to miss your life
And that is, from my heart, a fact

Missing Link

Look in my eyes, when you look in my eyes
Woman I can’t see

Asking me why, when you’re asking me why
I don’t know what you want to hear

Pleasure you seek, when it’s pleasure you seek
Honesty has left you so you lie

Wanting a kid, when you wanted a kid
Your only thought was “give it to me”

Pray now, you lost somehow, it’s the last of me
Now I’m the missing link, forever a fink
And me you will never know

Hey now, do you feel proud?  I would like to know
And can you hold your head high, and not ever cry
And is there someone you ought to know?

Telling you things, burning inside
Open your heart up wide

Climb right on in, we’ll begin again
Take me for a ride

The reasons aren’t clear – clouded with fear
That’s why I shied
From you at the start, couldn’t play the part
Can you forgive me cause now I’m here

Lift Up

TEDCast Lift Up

I just need a little uplifting
So I can go on living
I just need lifting up
When I'm low and feel like giving up

Lift me up
When I'm down on my knees
Lift me up
I'm begging you please
Lift me up
For these reasons and more
And I'm low
And feel like giving up

Can you help this man
When he's feeling low
Can you lend a hand
And make sure he knows
When he is able he is expected
To return the favor
So when you feel like giving up
I'll come and lift you up

Lift up the man
Hold your hands up
Lift them up
Those who fall down
Lift them up
Those who crawl on the ground
Lift them up
All those faces that frown
And when you're low
And feel like giving up

Lift up the ones
Who cry for love
Lift up the ones
Who hunger
Lift up the ones
Who have no mother
Lift them up
Cause they may feel like giving up

Thoughts on: The WIll to Play

And almost with inceptive (sic) foresight
That summarized our brief time together
Was “The Will to Play” written
One of the lines in it;
“Never is a season for a boy and a girl”
Was never more true
Than when the summer season was over
And you were back in school.  You went.
And yes it’s growing stronger inside of me.
Cause no matter that you can not find a reason to do it,
You’ve GOT to find the will to play,
To be happy, Do I digress or what?

Lost Song

TEDCast Lost Song

 There are many things that each of us face
Seldom do we see a road that is paved
All I know is that they lead to the same place
On your way down your road don’t be afraid


Are you looking in the right place?
When you are seeking the truth
Do you look at your face?
And know what to do

When you’re feeling less than
What you are worth
Do you criticize
And speak discouraging words

How well you sleep at night
And the way you live your day
Are subtle indicators
To your emotional state

Remember you are worthy
Of all you desire
And that will be the fuel
That will feed and fight your fire

There’s nothing to be ashamed that you have needs
Accept no blame for anything you feel
Your life is like a garden and yes it has weeds
And what you have to harvest becomes your meal