Patience

TEDCast Patience

Patience, why I am waiting for your validation?
Why should I care for your approval?
Patience, other factors I'm uncomfortable to say
I'm just infatuated with your hair

Anger, is this too much of a demand?
Anger, goddammit! I said I'm sorry
And I've made the changes, wait and see
Can't you wait and see?

Pity, here I am again
Pity, I'll stick my head in the sand
Pity, why the hell don't people love me?
Oh, I see.  I must love myself for it to be

Acceptance, finally found that peace of mind
Acceptance, I'm in a place that sunshine fills
Acceptance, the beauty and humility
Inseminates and gives birth to love

Humility

TEDCast Humility

I'm no better than you
You no better than me
I try to walk the middle road
Of humility

If I think me better
How can I be true
If I live a life of comparison
I'll be compared too

If I think me worse
And don't hold high regard
I may as well end this
And my life I should disregard

But walking down the middle road
And thinking me equal
Slowly my heart grows
And patiently I heal

Humility is not thinking less of myself but thinking of myself less often

Courage and the Pen

 TEDCast Courage and the Pen

Where is my courage
When I have something to write?

Where is my courage
When there is something on my mind?

Where is my courage
To pick up my pen?

When will my courage begin again?

Kicking and screaming across the page
Like a child not wanting to go to bed

Pushing and shoving from scrawls to lines
Begging and pleading for clever rhymes

Courage and the pen go hand in hand
Courage to speak out from hearts inner land
Courage to break an endless drought
Courage to write when full of doubt

Believe in the pen
And listen to your heart
Get out the paper
And write a new start

Push past the demons
Who laugh when they win
And put down your lines
With a courageous pen

Full of Hope

TEDCast Full of Hope

I am longing for the time
To bring myself into the world
To catch the speed of the wind
To move into a different world

I'm longing to be ready
To feel loves special bite
I'm tired of kicking and fighting
I'm weary of the sight

Of me going through this life
Alone on an empty boat
I'm ready for a new life
I'm getting full of hope

Another Island in the Stream

TED Cast Another Island in the Stream

We started out unique nice and slow
Agreeing that friendship was the way to go
This was new for us
But look at where we are now

And today you are so deep in my heart
Every thought of you is like a new start
And these words are clear
This is our new year

Even though we cry
And slip and fall
We hold each other strong
And never denying
That we rely on each other
While relying on ourselves

Sailing on a dream
Visiting new love
Given from above
Such a tender spot

We give to each other
What's growing inside
We live for each other
While living for ourselves
Ah ha!

The Morning Answer

 TEDCast The Morning Answer

I'm sitting alone in a hallway
Facing what's in front of me
My eyes are wells of tears
That could water a thousand trees

I'm now walking alone with my thoughts
And leaning too hard on you
Ashamed and impatiently waiting
If what we have is true

Lost at night lying alone
Turning towards the moonlight
Wishing I could go back
And visit you tonight

Letting you have your space
While I'm separated from you
Battling addictions and convictions
If what we have may be true

Lastly as the sun will rise
On tomorrow's dreaded day
One day closer to finding out
If you will walk away

Sharpen the Pencil and Dull the Brain (Fire Up the Night)

TEDCast Fire Up the Night
Dry woods, burning like a demon
Dry woods, burning like a witch
Dry wood, all the wood is steaming
Firing up the night

Fueled fire, flaming like a devil
Fueled fire, flaming like a bush
Fueled fire, sponsoring a fable
Firing up the night

Why can’t you hold out, you got to fire up the fight?
Why are you burning morning noon and night?
Faces are fading like a picture tube
Why are you waiting to follow the truth?

Why are we fighting you know how I am
Are you not satisfied?
My ways can not change, do they cause you that much pain
Are you still mystified?

The way of my living is like no one other
My secrets must be whispered
No modern medicine negates the existence
Of my over anxiety

Help, am I falling?
Help, are you wanting?
Help, am I in control?

Hell is for sinners
Hell is for losers
Hell is for lost souls?

Yes, I’m a winner
But not fit for dinner
At societies annual ball

I am a cold stone
I need no one
Only help to build my walls


I hide in a castle
I don’t want a hassle
Just sustenance served for one

My mind, please do not mind
My vision, may not follow suit
But my innovation
Is my own salvation
And I can not follow you

What gives me peace of mind
What makes my self go slow
What it takes for me to break
One way for an easy day

But you have to be ready for the price
Yeah you must be ready for the price …  Jesus Christ

What is it that you can not understand
Why can’t you back up to your man
Get up, stand up, make a stand
Right up past the limits of a man

Dry woods, burning like a demon
Dry woods, burning like a witch
Dry wood, all the wood is steaming
Firing up the night

Fueled fire, flaming like a devil
Fueled fire, flaming like a bush
Fueled fire, sponsoring a fable
Firing up the night

Cold Mountain Melody

TEDCast of Cold Mountain Melody

How can I tell her
My heart can’t deliver
I can’t seem to sacrifice
It’s not the looks
Or how she cooks
For understanding I’d pay any price

A happy girl and her son
Make a life of their own
Doing their best – No sins to confess
Together they battle each storm

A troubled man fights
Not to bring his troubled plight
Into their home scene – Shattering their home scene
Nothing I do just seems right

How long can I wait
How long will she worry
How come I have no courage
To face the judge and jury

No excuse for behavior
That causes duress
No excuse for behavior
That makes you upset

Driving towards the mountain snow
I didn’t think it would turn out like this
Arriving home wet and cold
Angry for nothing but still I’m pissed

Tears for a Torn Soul

 TEDCast of Tears for a Torn Soul

Wet pillow case
Torn soul seam ripped
Happy in the benefit of someone
Empty like the nest of a mother bird

Tears fallen out of smiling eyes
Laugh lines accented by downward pulls
Cups half empty even when full
Measures of time expected long waits

Oh the joys of smiles from outward
As the little ones grow into blossoms
Seeds of love spawn from frigid soil
Toiled and turned by forgiving hands

Place mats set at a table for three
Dust on the shelves where clean fabric laid
Threadbare cloth neglected and shabby
Spring clean time on weary old souls

Material tears and gains of trust mislaid
Grown men broken from expectation belayed
Paths overgrown by weedy neglect
Falls leaves litter the yards of the heart

Tether a Soul

TED Cast Tether a Soul

One can't tether a soul
Or capture a cloud whole
A bird in flight on air lifted wings
Cannot be grounded by mans guaranties

A fleeting thought has but one opportunity
A chance to be immortality saved
It passes through you once on its endless quest
To have its desire to be written quenched

A bird in flight on air lifted wings
Cannot be grounded by mans guaranties


What flows through me with no opportune
And fails to stick and make hearts swoon
Will chance itself on the next lucky soul
Who takes time to breath in its passionate moral

A bird in flight on air lifted wings
Cannot be grounded by mans guaranties

For souls can't be tethered and clouds captured whole
But inspiration is gifted by genies let loose
Swarming throughout each one of our lives
In hopes they are shared by all who try

A bird in flight on air lifted wings
Cannot be grounded by mans guaranties

Don't tether your soul, let your genie gift to you
All that they are bringing so that you can share
More of what comes from deep inside of you
Your courage strength and hope of emotions you wear

One can't tether a soul
Or capture a cloud whole
A bird in flight on air lifted wings
Cannot be grounded by mans guaranties

Profane

TEDCast Profane

I'm a dirty old son of a bitch
I got desires you can itch
I play with fire and sometimes burn
Bridges boundaries and my arm

I may make you quite uncomfortable
I have opinions unsupportable
I alienate with language profane
And call attention with actions so vain

It's me first, me second, me all the time
When thinking of you I may as well be blind
What only matters is that I finish first
I could care less how much your soul thirsts

I look, I flirt, I stare on with lust
I act on my impulses I easily break trusts
Nobody matters when I'm on my game
I'm unstoppable like a loaded freight train

My eyes do wander and fall on hard bodies
A disease, its true, with no antibodies
Indulging in my favorite sin
Coveting what belongs to him

I could take what is offered to me
And sleep at night like a well-nurtured baby
My conscience is free from faults and fuss
My habits are brazen and language is brusque

Yes, a dirty old son of a bitch
I'll sing my own song with perfect pitch
So even with thoughts and actions profane
I'm really quite lovable and far from mundane

Licking Liquor

TED Cast of Licking Liquor

Lately I am thinking that I'm drinking way too much
I hoping that it's just a phase I'm going through
I'm betting that I'm vetting on a brand new clue
Some simple savvy insight on a suicidal life

Oh, why am I thinking both day and night?
All about drinking everything thing in sight?
If I lie awake and fight off sleep
Then I won't have drunk dreams
That lately have been haunting me

I am serious that complete changes are needed in me
If I want a life that I can be
Living in the moment, not pouring out the past
Or living in a future state of mind
Poor me, poor me, pour me another drink!

I need a new direction, I'm making a decision
I'm dancing on the wreckage of my prior life
I'm ending this relation, I'm bowing out on benders
No longer am I checking into treatment centers

I've tasted one last beer, I've thrown up one last time
No more waking up, in beds that are not mine
Who is that woman lying next to me?
Who what where and why did I do last night?

I needed a reporter to report back on me
I needed a transcription of my activities
Recollection always hazy, my madness more than crazy
Dreadful always thinking: "What'd I do last night?"

Although I may have thought I had a great time
Never could I understand my journal lines
Drunk dialing, tipsy texting, crying jags
Couldn't understand, why no one would want, to be around me
Boo ho, boo hoo, boo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo!

I've spent lots of money, may have turned to crime
If I continued down that line
Criminal behavior were showing their signs
I no longer visit, the liquor and wine store!


(Slow Broadway)
No more glass bottles in my trash
No more relationships that I have trashed
No more hangovers that have kicked my ass
I've licked liquor where liquor once licked me....

I've gone on my last
Yes I've gone on my last
I've gone on my last drinking spree!

You Are Worthy

 TEDCast You Are Worthy

There are many things that each of us face
Seldom do we see a road that is paved
All I know is that they lead to the same place
On your way down your road don’t be afraid
Are you looking in the right place?
When you are seeking the truth
Do you look at your face?
And know what to do

Are you in the sky

TED Cast Are You in the Sky

I look upwards and I see light
Round orb fused into sky
Beauty light flashing strong
Fired in the kiln of heaven

The man on the moon wasn't lonely tonight
For all around him was a beautiful sight
You might say a face in the sky
For all to enjoy and to abide by

Burnished in beauty is the sky's backdrop
As moonlight moonlights as the artists' brush
Painting a feeling that presents as art
Emotes as tangibly as words

Stars that look out like eyes full of life
Look upon me with endless supply
Love glimmers twinkles and draws me high
Up towards the beauty that is in the sky

Lift Up

TEDCast Lift Up

I just need a little uplifting
So I can go on living
I just need lifting up
When I'm low and feel like giving up

Lift me up
When I'm down on my knees
Lift me up
I'm begging you please
Lift me up
For these reasons and more
And I'm low
And feel like giving up

Can you help this man
When he's feeling low
Can you lend a hand
And make sure he knows
When he is able he is expected
To return the favor
So when you feel like giving up
I'll come and lift you up

Lift up the man
Hold your hands up
Lift them up
Those who fall down
Lift them up
Those who crawl on the ground
Lift them up
All those faces that frown
And when you're low
And feel like giving up

Lift up the ones
Who cry for love
Lift up the ones
Who hunger
Lift up the ones
Who have no mother
Lift them up
Cause they may feel like giving up

Aluminum Soldiers

TEDCast Aluminum Soldiers

Death by the dozen
Marching.... Little Aluminum Soldiers
Raise your elbow bend towards battle
Marching as to war

Plan of attack
Maybe a cocktail
Made by Molotov
Made by Smirnoff or by Popov
Initiated under a clear moonshine

Remember when we used to worry about Dolphins dying?
On plastic pieces that used to hold our soldiers at arms
And remember the pull tab pollution that used to cut our feet?
Who is to say industry doesn't progress?

Little pawns of potency that are easy to disguise
In pockets of pants and cans of energy
A perfect serving size
On airplanes and buses and long taxi rides

Marching, marching, all in a line
Jump me and king me and turn me into wine
Red grapes so bitter as they lay on vines
So sweet as they ferment and become so refined

Marching.... Little Aluminum Soldiers
Bendable elbows
Incurable curls
Fashionable hangovers
Unbeatable hurls

A Dog's Faith

TEDCast A Dog's Faith

Hello, I know you’re out there
People like me, basically good
But troubled by what they see

Does it really take courage?
To admit that you’re wrong
I think not, it’s really a cop out
So you can sleep nights

So I’m waiting to meet with you
As long as I breathe I’ll look for you
A dog’s faith is unreliable when
Compared to mine
People are good they’ve just lost their mind

It’s time, it’s mine
And all that I want is well defined
So I’ll find the time, the time as
I’m in my prime and I have seen the sign

A Dog's Faith Unreliable to Mine

Lost Song

TEDCast Lost Song

 There are many things that each of us face
Seldom do we see a road that is paved
All I know is that they lead to the same place
On your way down your road don’t be afraid


Are you looking in the right place?
When you are seeking the truth
Do you look at your face?
And know what to do

When you’re feeling less than
What you are worth
Do you criticize
And speak discouraging words

How well you sleep at night
And the way you live your day
Are subtle indicators
To your emotional state

Remember you are worthy
Of all you desire
And that will be the fuel
That will feed and fight your fire

There’s nothing to be ashamed that you have needs
Accept no blame for anything you feel
Your life is like a garden and yes it has weeds
And what you have to harvest becomes your meal

Ever Since that Day

TEDCast Ever Since That Day

And it hurts now
Knowing you’re near
Even though it’s what I’ve wanted
For all of these years

And I see you rise
Every day
I turn over and cover myself
And wish you would go away

Hurt me now hurt me now
Or leave me alone
Leave me stranded
I’ll find my way home

Given love now
I’ll make it to you
Throw out the life preserver
I need some help

Cause ever since that day
That you packed up everything
And went away
And I sailed out on my own
And I feel something’s missing
In me I’m not whole
I have no home

Love comes and love goes
We’ve tried so hard
But together we’ve grown old

A destiny – when I wake up next to you
Even though my heart bleeds
There’s no one else but you

Cause ever since that day
That I sailed myself
Right back to you
There never was a way
No time or place that’d ever give me away

The Baby She Didn't Want

TEDCast The Baby She Didn't Want

Given up – unplanned baby
The years have not changed me
Give me love – it’s all that I’ve wanted
From the first breath that I took

A slap on the butt – a new born baby
Your curtain call for life has begun
A push and a shove – hey that’s your cue
The drama of your life has begun

Don’t ask for favors you’ll never get one
You’ll always give more than you receive
Your every little action that you can imagine
Is fashioned in your passion for love

Break ups – Those I’m familiar with
Jumping ship is not new to me
Enough’s enough – I’m fighting a fire
A rescue operation in effect

A blind man’s bluff – a last ditch effort
The saving grace is only my soul
Playing tough – nothing left
My options are to stand or fall

There is no sympathy – no, not for me
No pity no reciprocity
Your only learned behavior, your one and only favor
You can savor as long as you breath

Accepting the path that was laid at your feet
Putting one left foot in front of what is right
Right for your healing and right for your feeling
Of being whole and complete and chosen

The baby someone could love...